..and the feeling seems to be uncontrollable.
I sense that it is within me, but is not within my control.

The cause for this feeling is unknown.
Is it because of what i did yesterday? or maybe the other day..

Or it occurs naturally..

it occurs whenever it wills to, whatever one may be doing.
or wherever one may be..

like me. i'm just sitting here.. calm, harmless, silent..
but you do not know what i feel inside..
and you do not know why i feel it..

and the feeling somehow hurts..
you can expect it to come, and prepare for the pain..
but it comes by surprise.

i don't want to give in.

i try to fight the pain.

i try to kill the feeling.





but the feeling seems to be uncontrollable..


and it is uncontrollable..

especially if you ate too much yesterday, or the other day..



i need to go to the C.R.