kaya ko love si Lord eh..

kagagaling lang ni kuya ptr igi kanina, para dun sa hymns na tutugtugin namin sa monday.. eniweys, nung paalis na sya, nakwento nyang 'ayus daw yung gig'.. medyo nagtaka ako, kasi ang alam ko medyo nagkalat lang ang FHM band, pati ang Jengers siguro.. pero sabi nya, 27 out of the 38 guests ang harvest.. 27 ang nag-receive! (ayon sa post-gig survey namin.. =)

jengers.. jengers tlga.. during ng gospel presentation nila ate nikki at ate cha, na nire-enact ni ate misha (hehe!),
pinagppray ko na sana nakikinig yung guests at maging receptive sa message, at sana kahit isa man lang ang kausapin ng Holy Spirit.. pero nagkamali ako, masyado ko palang minaliit si Lord nun..(sori po.. =) hindi ko inasahang magiging ganun karami.. malamang, nag-piyesta sa langit! hehe..

kahit na parang hindi nakita ang 'excellence' sa tugtog namin nun.. kahit na masyado palang mainit yung spotlights.. kahit na kulang sa meryenda, at hindi ko man lang nahawakan kahit isa sa mga munchkins na binili ko.. kahit na nagkakahiyaan yung mga guests (parang nagkakahiyaan..).. kahit na natalisod si thirdie aka "boy bawang" dun sa last guitar solo ng 214.. kahit na tunog pagod yung pagkanta ko ng PnW (sori Lord..!).. kahit na nawala ako sa last song.. kahit na hindi kami nakapag warm-up at nakapag-timpla.. kahit na sintunado yung gitara ng "surprise (dahil di nila ininform ang Music Director agad na tutugtog sila! biruin nyo yun!?!) invited (dahil wala na akong magawa, kaya napayagan din silang tumugtog) band (dahil mukha naman silang banda, kahit naka-school uniform pa.. wehehe!!)".. jengers talaga!

di ko masabi nung una na "successful" ang gig.. sabi ko lang sa sarili ko na 'successful' ang gig dahil na-present naman namin ang gospel, kaya kahit na hindi maging receptive sa message ang mga tao, ayus lang - at least we did our part.. pero mali pala ako.. sobrang mali ko, dahil kinulang ako sa faith.. kahit na nanalangin na ako.. parang ako yung mga believers na nagpray noon para sa release ni Peter (Acts 12:1-19).. hindi ko inexpect ang mangyayari.. minaliit ko pala si Lord.


Ang galing talaga. jengers.. astig si Lord!!

..and the feeling seems to be uncontrollable.
I sense that it is within me, but is not within my control.

The cause for this feeling is unknown.
Is it because of what i did yesterday? or maybe the other day..

Or it occurs naturally..

it occurs whenever it wills to, whatever one may be doing.
or wherever one may be..

like me. i'm just sitting here.. calm, harmless, silent..
but you do not know what i feel inside..
and you do not know why i feel it..

and the feeling somehow hurts..
you can expect it to come, and prepare for the pain..
but it comes by surprise.

i don't want to give in.

i try to fight the pain.

i try to kill the feeling.





but the feeling seems to be uncontrollable..


and it is uncontrollable..

especially if you ate too much yesterday, or the other day..



i need to go to the C.R.

Asthenia

yes, i did lifted some weight somehow beyond my current limits..
and i did unexpectedly lifted 125 kg for my deadlift event..
and i also did had an 'adventure' (daig ko pa ang "amazing race" ni ate mish! harhar.. except.. i was alone.. aww.. =( ) going to Robinson's place sta. lucia all by myself..
and i did lost about 2kg to qualify for the weight class..
and i think i did had a great time today, even if it was quite exhausting..
and i was able to go home, all the way from Robinsons Place sta lucia to malabon, all in one piece..
and i was still able to eat well, because i was too worn out, literally, when i got home..


but i am not able to sleep..


extreme asthenia is what im feeling right now..




need help.. masahista wanted.. badly.

dahil cute ka... imbitado ka!

Come one, come all!

Ano: Youth Gig tugtugan
Saan: Caloocan Bible Church Open Grounds
Kelan: February 24, 2005
Oras: Bandang Gabi

For more info, sabihin niyo lang.






i-abolish ang valentines day.. isa itong kalokohan..

14....ugh..

ngayon ang araw na dumarami at nagkalat ang mga jolex.. bat ba kelangan na mangyari to?

wala akong pasok ngayon, review lang para sa Physio - kung hindi lang major subj yun, di ko na papasukan.. ang jologs ngayun e.. ang jologs.. nak ng kamote..


ang jologs talaga..


i-abolish ang "valentine's day"....


jologs..

CURRENT STATUS:

...naaadik sa music (o pag-iingay..) ng SLIPKNOT..

ewan ko kung bakit..

astig e..

basta..

naka-isang dosenang cycle na ata ako ng Slipknot songs...

anyway..

..in front of this loyal PC, i await for days of misery to come this week. A combination of quizzes, long exams, sleepless nights, runny noses, fatigued eyes, enlarged eyebags, weary muscles, etc is enough to define academic torment.

And because i am warned - i try to scuffle the exhaustions and fight the pains, while enduring every mental chastisement through the words from those wretched books. I strive to differentiate reality from delirium - bliss from blues..and while experiencing these barbarities of life, i comfort myself by the thought that these will pass.

Nevertheless, before anything else, an asinine tribulation will come the following week..


february the fourteenth..


so help me, God..

time

hehe.. finally, i have added pics to this blog.. (just scroll down,. it is somewhere below the 'profile' =)

but my blog now looks like mess-incarnate..

i think i need to 'fix' it and make it look organized....






i just wish i can..

happy new year ulit..

When you smile I melt inside
I’m not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I’m jealous of everybody in the room
Please don’t look at me with those eyes
Please don’t hint that you’re capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target that I’m probably gonna miss
. ->> First Date - Blink 182


....astig are the drumbeats of this song by Travis Barker

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL... AND BEYOND... AND VALENTINE's TOO...