Your Dominant Thinking Style:

Visioning You are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights.You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details. An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path.You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:

Exploring You thrive on the unknown and unpredictable. Novelty is your middle name.You are a challenger. You tend to challenge common assumptions and beliefs. An expert inventor and problem solver, you approach everything from new angles.You show people how to question their models of the world.

What's" Your Thinking Style?

Your Hidden Talent

You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary.

What's" Your Hidden Talent?

You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

Word for the day (or night) - - NyekLats..!!! (o_0)

Currently (11:14pm) getting close to insanity(already have 4 pages)..
2 pages.. 3 pages.. 4 pages.. 5 pages.. argh..
i just realized that writing something about an observation 3 months ago in one night is quite agonizing... NyekLats!i finished at 11:54, with six pages of 1,818 words... and what a mess i made to my brain after i dug it all out to search for long-gone memories...


Just got (about 2pm til 6pm) in love with..
she caught my eye as i passed by her window. a sudden stop to my hasty feet - and there she was.. as if she was staring back at me.. all captivating beauty.. her skin looked so smooth, its color much alive.. her face was white, elegantly poised above her neck..
she looked so tender - tender but strong.. she looked so fair - fair but fiery.. she looked so charming - and it was as if a violent mysterious breeze of passion continously blew between her and me..
i stood motionless for what seemed like forever and a half day.. after another blink, the chaos that the people around us made pulled me back to my senses... then i walked away.. i only realized after a few strides that the people around us wasn't the enemy.. time was our undefeatable foe.. NyekLats!!

yah.. she just caught me and i got speechless.. but then i just walked away.. not because im shy-shy.. (pero pwede din >_< ) it wasnt time yet for us to be.. cos i dint have enough money when i saw her.. o_0 NyekLats! gulay, was she damn pretty!! with her thin-bloody-red body (it would be a darker color if it was a thick-bloody red) and her snow-white nylon tip.. uyeah! just the perfect stick for me.. i just fell in love.. and i bought her today! hwaha! o_0 and used her immediately (or pwede ding "bininyagan" sa pilo) for band rehearsal!!! arrgghh!! my first pair of sticks that i fell in love with... owel.. i said once that its not in the sticks - the sticks doesn't matter.. but who cares anyways.. she's the prettiest pair i ever had.. NyekLats...

>> btw: i named her "Vladi" (hehe, panlalaki ba?).. lam mo na.. Vladi, as in Vladi-red.. hwahahah! (o_0)

Status (8am til 2pm?): unknown...
i still cant believe it.. walking towards the jeepney 'station' (with all the annoyances because its in front of a market..) i still cant comprehend what was happening.. sitting comfy inside an air-conditioned bus, my head still cant grasp hte complex thought... so i just, as always, let God's plan work out, diving into the waves again and letting myself be carried away according to His will..
i just got there.. not myself.. i dunno.. i dint greet the person who opened the gate for me (suplado..) - i came back to thinking hard about it and trying to understand... nyeklats..
i washed my face first before entering the room. i was almost late.. only a few more delegates came in before we started.. Ron was there (sawa na.. hehe..), plus benjie, and Jezreel (i remember that he was my lc-dc 2k4mate,i dint ask if he knew..).. still thinking why, how, why, how..
i just answered the get-to-know-me,get-to-know-you quiestions as sane as i can.. then jo came, i saw her looking at me, all smiles, pointing her thumbs up, implying in human-hand-lingo that something was ok - it was the P1600 'surprise' ship fare.. WHA?! so it was true.. i got it, my brain grasped that indeed, i will be able to step into that Humayon campsite, but still not sure if i can step out, if i have to, if, how, why.. then the staff and counselors introduced themselves, then some late-comers (from UPLB and PNU..??) then the interview....

whole story was.. KC was not included in my plans.. i rejected the thought of KC lingering in my head.. i ignore voices that bring it up.. i encouraged one churchmate (hehe) to join it, instead of me - and il be more than willing to help him get to that KC.. i formulated every excuse that i can make why i should not (or cant.. or will not.. or..) go to KC... i also rejected one by one.. and sometimes rejected them all - - those opportunities esp in leadership, where i can be used more for His glory..

but.. but.. but.. i forgot that i got ala-Isaiah one december night (actually, i also forgot when.. i think it was a month or two earlier..) .. and prayed "here i am Lord, use me..!!!!!" (waah.. weird. psycho. it came from deep inside of me, but i did not like the reality...) and my big God did answer.. it was confusing.. i made every effort not to hear his whisper-SSsss.. but once he whispers to you...nyeklats..

and then there i was, sitting, shivering (hehe,cos i was wearing shorts, plus shirt naman syempre.. summertime dud!), facing this staff, this ate chiri, who, at times said "ay, pareho tayo.. ako din dati ganyan.. tapos ganito.." and "wala namang leader na hindi naging reluctant eh" (eh pano po si Daniel..? haha, yeah, i was stupid enough to ask it.. o_0 just got curious! chaos was already happening in my mind, and it just popped out so suddenly out of my mouth..) "eh ibang context yun.." and etc.. nyeklats..and God used her.. showed the blessings behind his whisper-SSsss.. the blessings that i covered with fear, with doubt, with reluctance, with mediocrity, with..
it is confusing.. until now..

i cant believe.. i now rejoice.. i cant comprehend.. i now praise His work.. i cant grasp.. but i now thank God for esbi, my churchmates, my tatay, my nanay, my jeepney driver, my bus seatmate.. that interview, and ate chiri (waaah!!!! saya ko po kahit nakalimutan ko hiramin yung Basic Christianity... hehe =) )...

then excitement..

i am weak... am full of doubt, of fears, of uncontrollable passions, of stubborn drives, of pride, of suppressed rage, of frustrations, of, of.. of the worst something that you can think of.... - i am the worst - and i feel that they are stuck right in front of my face.. and i always try to hide it with the biggest smile that i can make..

i am incapable.. i am insufficient as myself.. i am worthless...... and i write the most incoherent papers and articles and blogs...

but my big God loves me anyhow.... only in Him, can i be a somebody..
and i want to be the best somebody that i can for Him..

KC na!

isang summary ng mga pangyayari sa aking buhay sa nagdaang mga buwan: (woah, havent bloggd for months..! =S) i just emitted the boring stuff..

so i hope u wont find these ones boring.. >_<

01/07/2006 - joined the Flute Ensemble, syempre, started by the Jengers.. i re-learned how to play the flute! hopefully, we'll present on the
4th sunday of march.

01/28/2006 - attended the MMFG festival Counselor's Briefing at the Day by Day Christian Ministries, CCP Complex, with my super sister, tracy. As usual, we had some unusual adventures on the way. I assumed that I know how to get there, but I don’t… - so bahala na si batman. I knew about the LRT thing and where CCP is, but i picked the wrong “orange shuttle” so we got lost for some 30 minutes before we arrived at CCP. Oh well…
It was also a new Christian experience at the Counselor Briefing – Christians from every place in the Philippines gathered for the MMFG festival, though tired, it was still an encouraging sight – and amazingly, these same Christians too fought selfishly and barbarically for their Counselor Badges, as if the Volunteer workers who were giving away the badges were actually having an Ukay-ukay sale.. kamote.. im not gender biased, but the gents were the first ones to discipline themselves and form a nice, straight, orderly, and un-shocking line. I didn’t let tracy join the chaos so I was the one who got the badge for her... and yeah, believe me, it was really hell-on-earth at the “ladies’” ukay-line… it took me some while to realize that they were there also to be Counselors at the MMFG… oh well… thankfully for them, I did not let my football instincts (lam mo na, yung pang-uumbag, paniniko, etc…) win over me, so I just stood there until I got pushed to the counter and got tracy’s badge. Ayus!!!

02/01/2006 – haha! The Counselor Rehearsal for the MMFG came – and guess what,.. I’m a counselor! (o_0) anyways, the catch is that I did not attend the rehearsal but joined the 4,000 voice choir with some of my churchmates. I think im choir member number 2,957… im not sure.. >_< TRIVIA: it was the 2nd time that i sang in front of (and/or with) many people..

02/02 to 05/2006 – MMFG festival… I still went as a choir member, but I joined the counselors during altar calls… however, I chose not to blog my experiences here for courtesy to those involved in it =) … pa-kwento mo na lang sa akin if u want…

02/12/2006 – I taught the Eagles (the bigger and older Jewels – CBC’s outreach to Lapu-lapu’s street kids…) as a Big Brother… and I learned a lot when I taught them…

02/14/2006 – banquet night ng esbi! At isa ako sa mga akilang organizers…. Nakakapagod… (yun lang maalala ko eh…)

02/15/2006 – Gents night! (or gents madaling-araw…) and though I got exhausted the previous banquet night, it was such a wonderful experience that God still kept me wide awake and sustained us physically and spiritually for the gents night…

02/24/2006 – I was excited enough to wake up early for my Soccer class in front of NEC (we’re supposed to have street soccer…). I got to school in time and ayus! Classes were suspended… kamote…

03/03/2006 - i broke my 2am record -- 4am na ako nakauwi!!.. at first time ko masaraduhan ng pinto.. may gulay.. >_<>Cringer ni Kuya Iking.. nakarating naman kami ng matiwasay sa Intramuros at natapos ang program, pero nung pauwi na kami, hindi ko sigurado kung isa ba samin ay sadyang malas o nagkataon lang na nagtampo si Cringer. Ayun, tumirik kami (actually, yung van lang ang tumirik.. hwehehe..), thankfully, hindi sa gitna ng highway.. matapos ang ilang sandali ng pagtutulak kay Cringer, at paghihintay, may dumating na napakabait na mga tower manongs at dinala kami sa kanilang Impounding Area, guess where... sa Smokey Mountain.. and the place is still haunted by garbage - basura ang pamamalakad nila manong.. kaya nagstay kami dun til 3am dahil ayaw na talaga ma-resuscitate ni Cringer after kuya Iking's attempts.. iniwan lang kami (ako, plus 4 na makukulit (hwehehe, sorri.. blog ko to, wla kayo magagawa!!!) na esbi) ng ilang sandali para bumili ng fud at magpalamig.. katuwang adventure, at napakadami naming napag-usapan tungkol sa buhay, tulad ng kili-kili, roll-ons at armpit hairs.. matapos angilang sandaling iyon, dumating ang super hero ng mga sasakyang nato-tow (pero pang members lang..) - ang AAP.. ayus.. napaka-dramatic ng
pagdating, plus yung ilaw sa roof nung vehicle na pangTow nila(? di ko napansin kung ano yung vehicle, bangag mode na nun eh..) ohwell.. God made us aware of our other surroundings, matapos ang gimik from QC to manila.. and His faith, sa gitna ng mga awareness na iyon, sa gitna ng Smokey Mountain... 3am na nga kami nakalabas ng Smokey Mountain,

TRIVIA: pers taym ko pala makapunta sa loob nun, dati, napapadaan lang ako dati doon at namamangha na pwede palang magkaroon ng bundok ng basura - namamangha sa bundok ng basura na may taong nakatira...

03/12/2006 – our CG (woah, its nameless until now..???) went to Genoi’s house to visit him!!! And hehe, we brought some “relief goods” with us…
Yey! (>_<’) It was so amazing that in spite of all the difficulties that life forcefully offers, we still saw how God works through each one of us… we almost did not have any place to stay in at their compound but thankfully, one of his lola’s offered her small sala and the five of us (absent yung mga pascua… =S ) gathered and felt God’s presence in our fellowship…

hmm... yun lang muna... God is still molding me everyday, cant blog about them palagi dahil sa kawalan ng sapat na oras...

still, cant stop drumming...

caffeine overdose....

here am i, staring again at one of my bestfriends, compy the computer..(haha, actually, i thought of that stupid name just now, wlang magawa eh... >_<) im not even supposed to be bloggin this moment - i have an exam on physiology tomorrow! argh... just soundtrippin actually.. it just happened that i got on, then decided to blog..


owel... next taym na lang.. im really plannin to blog about everythin.. pero alang time eh./.