i just saw my CHEM 16 class standing..



i need 123 freakin' points to pass!!!!!




so help me, God.


BTW:: i cancelled my summer class sked for chem16... =)

ala lang.. i just had a haircut the other day(or was it last week already..?) so i guess my blogsite should get a new look too..

its still sort of "under repair" though..

waddyatink?? =)

Biyaheng EDSA

wala man lang paalam.. umalis ka na lang bigla.. nawala.

Pagkatapos ng ating pagsasama, matagal-tagal din naman iyon - bigla ka na lang umalis.

Nagkatinginan tayo sa mata. Tinitingnan ko kasi ang mata mo nun at sinusubukang alamin ang iyong iniisip. At tumitingin ka naman pabalik - marahil iniisip mo kung bakit ako nakatingin; at siguro gusto mo rin naman din tingnan ang mata ko at alamin ang aking nasaisip. Pero alam kong hindi ko malalaman, at hindi mo rin malalaman, dahil kulang ang sandali.
Minsan magkadikit ang ating mga braso, pero minsan parang iniipit mo na ako. insan naman parang wala lang sa iyo, pero minsan napapangiti na lang ako. Minsan kasi dikit na dikit ka na sa akin na para bagang ako na lang ang gusto mong lapitan. Pero minsan, sobrang layo mo naman. Ayaw ko namang abutin ka lagi dahil may sariling buhay ka pa rin. Minsan natutukso akong gumalaw papunta sa iyo. Pero hindi ko rin naman kita pilit na tatabihan - bakit naman?

Minsan kasi ikaw lang ang lumalayo. Pero nandito lang ako lagi sa sulok ko.

Hindi ko rin naiwasang maamoy ka - ang pabango mo na hindi ko mahulaan, siguro dahil may kasama nang amoy ng pagod. Hindi ko lang alam kung naamoy mo rin ako. Sana lang, hindi pa ako amoy pagod. Nag-shower naman ako kanina pagkatapos mag-gym. Nagtooth-brush pa nga pala ako eh.

Pero sayang ang bango ng toothpaste kung hindi tayo mag-uusap.. nakakangalay din magkuskos ng ngipin sa loob ng anim na minuto - at hindi na nga pala tayo nag-usap.

bigla ka na kasing umalis. Hindi ko nalaman agad kung bakit - matagal kong inisip..


Oo nga pala.. hindi tayo magkakilala talaga.. baka taga diyan ka lang.. sa kabilang kanto pa ako bababa.. ehehe..

para sa iyo..*

Punasan ang mga luha,
idilat ang mga mata.
Muling iguhit ang ngiti sa labi,
pigilan na ang paghikbi.

Harapin ang bukas, at
limutin ang masalimuot na kahapon.
Sa buhay ay huwag nang mabagot,
huwag ka nang muling malungkot.

Hindi diyan nagtatapos ang buhay,
huwag mong sayangin ang lakas.
Ipunin muli ang sigla,
sabayan ang araw sa bagong umaga.

Bumangon ka na, pare ko -
huwag kang matakot madapa.
Bawat pagkakamali ay gawin na lamang na gabay,
at kung nag-aalinlangan, humawak lamang sa Kanyang kamay. =)

*para sa iyo, na nawawalan ng pag-asa, hindi makaalis sa dati, at walang magawa.. hehe..

For this is what te high and lofty One says - he who lives forever, whose name is holy:
"i live in a high and holy place, but also with him who is contrite and lowly in spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the contrite."

- Isaiah 57:15

...cheer up

...smile. =)

macapuno...*

Even though I step on a hundred thorns everytime I place my feet on the ground,
God carries me when i can't bear the pain.

Even though i see only shadows of troubles and distress in my path,
He becomes the light when i lose my way.

Even though my heart pumps sorrow in every beat,
He fills my blood with gladness and my soul cries out with joy.

Even though my world always seem to fail and fall,It really isn't falling at all..
- because He's got the whole world in His hands..

(It's not finished yet.. i just have to end it because i have to study for my chem16 exam =(.. )
i remember the time when i was still trying hard to play that "children's church" song in the piano- "He's got the whole world." I think it has flats and sharps (means you have to press that black keys on the piano..) and that was a hard task for me at that time. Well, that's why i chose to be a drummer - at least you don't have anything to read to play.. harharhar! Anyway, when i grew up, i realized that the song wasn't really hard at all, pare.. i think i even played it on guitar spontaneously.. (i mean, 'kinapa' lang.. hehe.. can't find any better word..) and i guess, every child can sing the song, (maybe given that s/he experienced Childrens church once.. hehe..)

The song goes like:

He's got the whole world - in His hands,
He's got the whole world - in His hands,
He's got the whole world - in His hands,
He's got the whole world - in His hands!

He's got the little, bitty baby - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got you and me brother - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got you and me sister - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got everybody here - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got the wind and the rain - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got the sun and the moon - in His hands.. (4x)
He's got the whole wide world - in His hands.. (4x)

i just realized that the song doesn't have any flats or sharps at all.. i was just a lazy piano student! harhar!.. But anyway, the song was that simple! I bet everybody can sing it.. even children can. It was an easy song for me when i was a child, and i think that was another reason i didn't like to play it (pride! hehe..) but yeah, it was easy, but i oftentimes forget its message now that i grew up.. That our God is always bigger (that's why we call Him "GOD") and He's got everything in His sovereign power..
i guess, it is pretty difficult to comprehend, especially if you're too busy with something, your mind is filled with nonesense, and you miss your time with Him (waah! parang ako..)

well, in any case, He's still around, unchanging, maybe quiet but still is able to do anything.. He will listen to His chosen one's, even though we forget Him.. we just have to humble ourselves sometimes and remind ourselves that we need our God to survive.



i just wish it won't rain when i sing that song again...


*kaya nga pala macapuno, kanina sa bus on my way home, biglang may naglako ng macapuno sa may monumento.. astig! sakto! just when i need it the most.. sobrang sakit ng katawan ko, sobrang pagod, depressed sa exams, asar sa wala.. pero astig... hehe.. i prayed that God would cheer me up kanina, tapos biglang pumasok si manong.. kahit simple lang.. God always puts a smile on my face..

STATUS:: naglalaway...

argh.. i want one of those....

ignorance is bliss....



yeah right....



hah!..

ayos to a.. galing sa prenster..

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Message:

A- Age*** hulaan mo..
2. B - best asset*** best? hirap nun a.. magkaka-lebel e.. wehehe!!
3. C - Career*** matulog..
4. D - Drink or smoke*** Drink... smoke ka dyan.. jologs..
5. E - Easiest person/s to talk to*** yung unan ko..
6. F - Food that you could never eat*** any "large-sized" fast food.. nalulula ako.. cant imagine opening my mouth as wide as my jaws can take, and devouring all that meat stuff..
7. G - Gummy Bears or Gummy Worms -*** Potchi..
8. H - Hobbies*** mag-gitara.. kaso, i havent been able to strum my dear guitar for the past two weeks.. =(
9. I - In-love?*** hah! hahah!! joleks..
10. J - Junk food you like*** any kind of potato chips..
11. K - Kids*** bukids..
12. L - Longest ride ever*** distorted(may trapik..) bus ride home from UP diliman to.. home.. mga 3 hours.. =)
13. M-My favorite sport?*** sa ngayon, weightlifting.. but its not considered a sport, unless there is competition. so soccer pa rin.. im a try hard lifter anyways.. (compared to those hulks..)
14. N - Number of siblings*** tatlo yata sila..
15. O - One wish you have?*** her..
16. P - Phobias*** injure myself..
17. Q - Favourite Quote?*** ala e..
18. R - Reason to smile*** God.
19. S - Song you sang last?*** im alright - by jars of clay.. actually, yung whistle part lang e..
20. T - time you woke up*** 9 am na ata or 830.. 2am na ko nakatulog dahil sa FULLCUP!! woohoo!!
21. U - Unknown fact about u -*** i dont know.. kaya nga "UNKNOWN" e.. duh..
22. V - Vegetable/fruit you love -*** petsay, cabbage, apple, papaya, watermelon, orange..
23. W - Worst habit*** magbasa ng derecho!!!! as in book marathon for one day!!!! >> same.. kaya ako tamad magbasa e.. hehe.. tsaka katamaran..
24. X - X-rays you've had*** sa chest.. requirement sa peyups..
25. Y - Yummy food/s*** pizza dati.. ngayon, nagtyatyaga sa tuna at magicflakes..
26. Z - Zodiac sign*** Zebra..

hehehe..

STATUS: naiinis ako ngayon (*frustrated*) nakakainis mag-soundtrip, lalo na kung hindi ka maka-gitara.. )
CURRENTLY PLAYING: He - Jars of Clay

kakagising ko lang.. ulit. nakatulog na kasi ako sa kakaaral para sa exam ko sa Human Physiology bukas - tungkol sa digestive system. Ewan ko ba.. ewan ko kung puyat at pagod lang talaga ako, o sawa na ko kakaaral ng tiyan. O baka hindi na ako marunong mag-aral. Kaya eto, onlayn muna. alam kong wala naman akong mapapala dito, pero sige lang. titingnan ko kung sino onlayn sa YM.. syempre, di ko malalaman kung sino yung mga naka invi-mode.. pero ayos lang.

Iniisip ko rin kasi kung may nakalimutan ba akong requirement. Inaalala ko yung sked ko, sa kaiisip ko tuloy, naalala kong dalawang linggo na lang, tapos na ang sem na ito. matutuwa na sana ako, pero naalala kong hindi nga pala ganoon kadali matapos ang isang sem.

Gagapang muna sa lusak ang isang estudyante. Sabay sabay kasi ang mga exam,papers,reports, at iba pang kawirduhan. badtrip.

At hindi pa natatapos ang lahat doon. pagkatapos ng Holy Week, may finals pa akong nag-iisa sa chem16. Pang-asar. Ewan ko ba kung dapat na iniisip ko na yun ngayon. Ayoko rin naman.

Bakit di na lang kasi pwedeng matulog habang buhay. Managinip.

Syempre, ako rin yata ang makakasagot sa tanong na iyan - kasi naitanong ko na yan dati. Mahirap nga daw pala ang buhay. Mahirap nga daw pala ang mabuhay. Kailangan mong kumain. Dahil kung hindi, magkaka-ulcer ka, dahil sa mga digestive enzymes ng stomach tulad ng HCl. Kailangan mo rin pala ng food for nutrients na nasisipsip sa small intestine. Pagkatapos nun, sa large intestine naman, pero wala na dun - lalabas na. Hindi rin maikakailang masarap kumain, salamat na lang sa mga taste buds ng dila.

Kahit nakakatamad. Kahit nakakabagot. Kahit nakakabato. sige na nga.. itutuloy ko na lang mag-aral.. mag-aral ng digestive system para sa exam ko bukas.. (sabi ko pa naman dati, peyborit ko ang Human anatomy at Human Physiology.. hindi pala palagi.. hindi ko sila paborito kapag kulang ang oras.)

mamaya. ipopost ko muna to.

*in awe*

Magazine, my surprise-God-given-almost-front-row JOC ticket, at ang KODIGO NI BARBIE!!! woohoo!! (ang pretty nya in person!! well, actually, kinindatan pa nya ako.. muhahaha!)

we weren't really rich.. but our God is gracious..

so gracious, loving, magnificent, undescribable..
even frustrating.. because i know that i really really don't deserve such love.
Sometimes, it even hurts that i still feel His hand even though i run away..
nakakainis.. bat ba ang bait mo sakin? bat mo ko mahal?

it takes some time to realize i've fallen..
indeed, No one loves me like You.. no one loves me the way that You do..

and You were there when i needed You..

and You're unforgetful..

salamat.. sobra.. salamat..
kulang ang mundo ko.. sa totoo lang, hindi karapat-dapat.. para mabayaran ang
kabaitan Mo..

astig.. astig ang Barbie's cradle.. astig ang Jars of Clay.. astig si God..


*speechless*

*in awe*

fade to gray...

tunog..

kreeeeek...


that sound i heard made my day..

and i promise not to forget that sound..

and it will stay in my memory, because the wound cannot be hidden..

the wound will not be hidden.

it will stay forever..

it will be seen forever..

it will be seen in my shorts forever...

jengers!! thank heavens, i was on my way home (from school!!) when that sound was produced..

the sound of my dearest shorts tearing apart...

MUSIC TAG!

Got music tagged! gusto ko sanang magblog.. kaso masakit tyan ko, di ako makapag-isip, kaya eto na lang muna.. tulog muna ako..








My current Random 10: (puro luma eh..)
All the small things - blink182
Rage - battery
Mysterio - slapshock
The happy song - delirious
Surfacing - slipknot
numb - slapshock
worlds apart - Jars of clay
uncertainty - bridge
Vermillion part2 - slipknot
Paris - chicosci

What is the total amount of music in your PC? about 3 gigs.

The last CD i bought: uhm.. ung sa parokya yata.. nung hayskul pa, at di pa uso ang magdownload ng mp3 sa net.. hehe..

The last song you listened to before this message? Wake up - RageAgainstTheMachine
5 songs you listen to a lot and mean a lot to you:
Worlds Apart - Jars of Clay
yung song ni J.Lo.. di ko maalala ung title, pero ung video nun yung may snow, tapos may partner syang negro.
Torniquet - evanessence (sinayaw ni *** astig!)
Ocean avenue - yellowcard
One way - hillsong.. hehe.. bakit kaya?

Who are the people you're going to pass this on to:
ikaw.. na nakabasa nito.. i music tag you!!!!